Saturday, June 13, 2015

Grace comes through only the cracked places, therefore don't be afraid of the pain..
























Just when you thought things had reached the low point and could not get any worse.

Then they did.

But you kept clinging on to the promise and hope, to the only thing that you know will ever make any sense and ever turn things around. And it's a sure thing that He does it.
Faith is firm trust in the things that we do not see.
He does answer our prayers, but in his love sometimes... he waits.

If you would see me you'd think that I went on some crash diet because of my 35 pounds lighter frame. No, it's not a sudden desire to buy all new wardrobe. It's because I' have had the hardest time of my life and I have to force myself to eat. So you would not want to go on this diet.
I'm sorry I can't share any details, because it all involves other people and this is a public forum.
My crappy health is part of it, but i can perhaps talk about that a little later.

I was actually trying to photograph the paintings this morning.. I'm planning to take them to Helsinki Artists' Union "Art Library" because I sold something from there recently and I get to bring in new stuff.
My camera also caught some grapes turning into raisins, and Valo being the sweet rag doll that he is :) (He's not really a Ragdoll cat, but a Siberian cat.)

I know there is a bright morning sun just behind the horizon. I can see the first golden pink rays already.

I have some fun news too, but I will keep you in suspense for a while :) Yeah, as if you are just waiting to hear about my little life, holding your breath on the other side of the ether :D :D :D

((Hugs to all you faithful readers ))















12 comments:

Rosemary/sonrie said...

Hope your health will improve ... love the last photo of the cat's eyes looking just slightly startled! He must be very patient.

Sandy said...

I'm sorry to hear you've been going through such a difficult time, but your words really resonated with me. The past two years have been extremely difficult for me as well, and sometimes I just wonder when it's going to get better. I do keep trusting in Him and my faith has grown through this difficult time. I have learned that when we are in the midst of life's storms all we can do is cling to the cross and amazingly, He's always there. I have been glad to see your updates and am saying some prayers for you from over here in the USA. Take care and may God bring you healing and peace. Hugs, Sandy

Vappu said...

Sonrie: Thank you. really think it has been improving slightly. I have been on an essential oils, herbs and supplements protocol during this spring, I have a long way to go, but I just got some results showing my chronic Epstein Barr virus titers have down a little. And some other infections that used to be IgM positive, no longer were. Still being tested for Lyme disease (which killed my mother). I was also diagnosed with Ehlers-Danlos syndrome, and I already had a pretty long list with the Crohn's disease, pituitary tumor (which disappeared once but apparently came back), Addison's disease.. oh what else is there, LOL!
Thinking of starting IV antivirals, and antibiotics if they do catch the borrelia.. Those are such heavy drugs though.

Yes, Valo is so patient with Indi, and when he has had enough he will just very quietly meow <3 We need to keep telling Indiana to listen to him and let him go when he doesn't want to be held (or squished!)

Sandy: Thank you Sandy for sharing your thoughts. I know at times I have felt like, Lord, isn't this a little too much?? But the I am reminded that he really has the best intentions for me, the perfect plan and will, I only need to say, do you work on me, Lord. Let happen what needs to happen, I do not see it now, but I know you will let me understand your purposes in time, at the right time.

In my church there was a great sermon recently (all the sermons are great, I wish they were available in English), and it was said that sanctification only comes though suffering. When we come to faith in Jesus and decide to give our life over to him, we give him permission to start working on us. Doesn't the Bible say that without sanctification no one will see the Lord? And we do not sanctify ourselves. The proud ego wants to think that I'm holy enough, good enough, right? Indeed, I am the imagine of God, but that picture has gone horribly wrong and is all distorted. It hurts to let it be straightened out.

I wish you continued resting at the foot of the cross, in the arms of the good shepherd <3

Spaarmoeder! said...

I'm so sorry to read that you ar going through such a difficult time. Keep faith, eveything will get better in one way or another. Happy to see the pictures, they made me smile (patient cat!)

Anne said...

I always look forward to reading your posts. I hope that dawn is truly breaking for you. If you don't mind, I will add you to the prayers of my family.

Hugs,
Anne

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sunnysblog@gmail.com said...

I read this entry at just the right time. God has shown me something in my life but it's not the time now. so I wait. and it's not easy or fun. I reached a point last night where I could only cry out to God and tell Him that He's all I have. There's no one I can talk to about what He's shown me will happen, so i have to lean on God and trust in his provision for my needs.

So I read your words with that in mind. Know that you're not alone. If there's anything I can do, let me know :)

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Jessie said...

Hi, I really love reading your blog, almost every posts on your blog. The photos you take are just simple but wonderful, brings me the comfortable feelings. :) Hope to see more of your blog posts!
Best wishes.

Unknown said...

I just found your blog - it has really touched me. The photos and your painting and new home are so beautiful. Your post brought a tear to my eye, unusual for me - I may be a little hormonal, I'm not sure! Just hang in there, hold it down, things always seem darkest before the sun comes xx

Vappu said...

Jessie and Emma - Thank you.